It was a fine sunny morning which
happened to be the first day of my school life. I set out with my father to my
first school which was entitled S.C.B medical Public School. I was little
nervous as well as frightened but everything went right on that day. Soon time
passed on and I got promoted to higher classes and list of my friends
increased. I made many friends of both sexes. We all friends had formed a gang.
One after another day passed on and I passed each day enjoying every bit of it.
By securing good marks in final exams of class – VIII I got promoted to class –
IX. I enjoyed every moment during that summer vacation. Our school re-opened
and I was filled with excitement about meeting my friends again. That morning
my heart was indicating something i.e. some preposterous thing was going to
happen. I reached school, met my old friends and at that time I was very happy.
My heart was extremely happy and was continuously indicating about something
unexpected. My heart was singing, dancing and was behaving as if it has got the
important thing it wanted in life. I was not able to get the point but still I
was waiting for some miracle on that day.
Recess
bell rang and I along with my whole gang went to our school canteen and took our
respective seats that were nearly reserved for us. My heart started beating
faster as if indicating that the happiest moment of my life was very near.
Abruptly I heard a beautiful voice which I thought I have some where heard it
in my dreams. I was little surprised but was delighted to meet someone of my
dream in reality. I found that the voice was coming from my backside.
“Excuse
me Ambarish. Would you mind including me in your friend’s list as well as in
your gang?” These were the most touching words that came out from the mouth of
a very beautiful and winsome looking girl named Nisha. I got a little allured
towards her. My heart didn’t remain in its normal state but was in the seventh
heaven. I felt some sparks in my body. My heart indicated that she was very
innocent and was very true from her heart. So I accepted her proposal and
included her in our gang. From that day we became close friends and spent most
of our time together on telephone or in any parks. We slowly gained faith on
each other. We started sharing our secrets without any scepticism. Time passed
on, friendship gained momentum and we both got promoted to class – X.
Both
her parents were working as doctors in Sambalpur. She was living here with her
grandparents and her younger sister Rea. We helped each other in every sphere
as far as it was possible. As we came closer and closer the bond of our
friendship got stronger. I took this friendship as LOVE. I was so much in love
with her that I couldn’t even pass any day without talking with her. We used to
talk on telephone everyday.
Time
swiftly passed on and ICSE board exams came to a short distance. “We shouldn’t
waste our time on phone as the exams are knocking and we should concentrate on
our studies.” This was the most terrible thing I was frightened of hearing. But
I had to agree with her keeping stone over my heart. Days were very hard to
pass by. It became very difficult for me to concentrate on studies. But I had
to concentrate because I didn’t want to destroy the dreams of my parents. So,
by God’s wish everything went good and our examination got over. That day I
returned home and was waiting for her phone call. That day I was feeling as if
I had touched the sky. All of a sudden the telephone started dancing on its
toes. Leaving everything, in one breathe I ran towards the dancing phone and
picked it up. That familiar voice of Nisha came from the other side. At that
moment I felt as if I have got all the things I wanted in my life. Earlier I
had decided that I would propose her that day. I talked with her for one and
half hours and gained much courage and spoke those golden words “I LOVE YOU
NISHA”. The most fortuitous thing happened. She was shocked and got angry to
her heart. She shouted at me and to some extent misbehaved me but I didn’t feel
bad as I myself had got into hot water. She set her face against my proposal.
She kept out the phone from the other side. This was the most sickening mistake
that I made on that day. Then I tried to make contacts with her but she never
talked with me. I was in a great dilemma. I cursed myself for the blunder. I
repented as I myself got out of pocket. Then I thought of another way. I tried
to make contacts with her best friend Shruti. She was also one of the members
of our gang. Shruti knew all the true love I had for Nisha. I kept the
situation as an open book in front of her. She assured me that she would lend a
helping hand towards it and would try to seal the broken bond between us. I was
little relaxed. During those days time had hung heavy on me. I couldn’t express
my sorrow in front of anyone. I became helpless and was feeling very sick and
lonely. The joys of my heart were dead. I tried very hard to restore it but
failed in every sphere. I felt as if everyone was ignoring me. Life became a
hell for me. My heart was crying vigorously. All the attempts made by Shruti
failed as Nisha denied discussing anything on that matter with Shruti. At last
all my hopes were dashed and I was forced to the dark room of my life.
Gradually time passed on with extreme difficulties. I decided to spend my whole
life after her. I just wanted to meet her once and beg sorry from her and would
try to pick her out of my heart which was a difficult task for me.
Then
I had to go to meet my father in Delhi with my mom and sis. I stayed there for
ten to fifteen days. I was totally disinterested for that trip but was forced
by my mom. When I returned the most doleful thing of my life happened. I felt
that why was I alive to face this situation. Nisha along with her family had
left the place. From different sources I came to know that she had gone to
Sambalpur forever. To add to my woes when I tried to make any contact with
Shruti I found that she had gone to Kolkata as her father got transferred. I
was in such a state that I wanted to die but the thought of my parents was
pulling me from my back. I was really frustrated with my life. I was spending
my life like an aimless person. Then exam results were out. I scored a good
percentage of mark as also she did. Forms were sold from different colleges. I
had knowingly submitted a form in Sambalpur University. Why was the Taskmaster
rude with me? I wondered over it. After feeling my desolation the great
Taskmaster gave some consolation through an intimation letter from Sambalpur
University. Then I convinced my parents and got admissions in +2 Science in
Sambalpur University. I took admissions there so that I can search her. By that
time my heart had become deserted with sorrow, cries and repentance. My search
continued. Days after days passed. Many seasons came and went by. Everyone in
this world was enjoying whereas I was crying. Nobody was present to share my
melancholy state. Happiness of my heart had died long ago. I became a
broken-hearted guy. As each day was passing the tree of hope in my heart was
getting filled with poison. All the apples were falling out one by one. Somehow
I managed to pass out my first year. I was always roving around in search of
the reason that what sin I had committed in my last birth for which I am
suffering in this birth. I was midway through my final year but I was not able
to find any trace of her. Slowly all the apples of the tree had fallen out.
Monsoon had arrived.
One
night I was returning from my coaching class. It was raining heavily. I was
passing through a street and was completely wet. All the thoughts about her were
revolving around my mind. I was feeling more forlon when instantaneously out of
the darkness a car passed by and the moment it crossed me it just stopped. I was
flabbergasted and was thrown in panic. As many dreadful thoughts came to my
mind that any thieves may come out. Suddenly I was unruffled for a moment. My
heart slowly gained its life as a beautiful girl stepped down from the car.
After seeing her my heart started dancing like a peacock. Once again new apples
came out on the tree. My deserted heart became full of greenery. Happiness
again came back to my heart in leaps and bounds as to my utter surprise the
girl who stepped out was Nisha!!!!!!! We stood far apart for some minutes. No
one was speaking. All the books fell out of my hand. Tears came into my eyes as
well as hers. I broke the silence “Forgive me Nisha. I have repented for the
mistake……………..” she intervened and spoke “ I should ask for forgiveness as I
given so much of pain to you. Sorry for my deeds. I did get every news about
you from your best friend Anurag. Later I realized that why didn’t I agree to
your proposal. I want forgiveness for the misbehavior I showed to you. At that
time I couldn’t decide what was right. I always tried to beg you forgiveness
but I didn’t gather enough courage to say so. I also suffered a lot in these
years without you. I lived only with your memories. I don’t know if you will
get angry or not but I want to say you today that I LOVE YOU AMBARISH”. My joys
knew no bounds. I was still befuddled that what I was hearing was real or am I
dreaming. She again spoke those beautiful words “I LOVE YOU………………..I LOVE YOU
AMBARISH” and I replied to her as “I LOVE YOU TOO NISHA”. At that time I was in
such a blithesome mood that I can’t express it. Then we both were locked in
each others arm………………………
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